grrrrrr !#@&*@*!!!

Remember when I said that Lysol still smells like the out house at girl scout camp? Well, it's Pine-Sol that smells like the out house.

Remember when I said there were thousands in our country living with Alzheimer's? Well, it's more than that. I'm reading a book called "Preventing Alzheimer's", and it says that one out of every two families in the U.S. has a member with A.D. It affects five MILLION in our country, and the chance of getting it doubles every five years after the age of 65. By 85, (my dad is 86), there is a 50% chance that you will develop it.

Remember all those things I've learned? Scratch 'em. Some of the time, I have learned them. Some of the time, I haven't. Some of the time they work, some of the time they don't. Today, one of those days...

I thank God that it's not every day that I have to deal with the hard stuff. Today when it happened, I thought....oh no! not again!!!! And for those few minutes, I was saying to myself, I can't do this. This really sucks. It's too sad. I don't want this!!! Well, as I type this, I still don't want it. It just is. And I'm done with the grrrrrrrrr @!@*^#@!!! Once again, I took a deep breath...there, that's done. And life goes on. I don't want to give the impression that everything is hunky dorey and it's so easy having my dad here. I do enjoy him. Easy? Not really. Different? Challenging? yes. It feels good to be able to help him out. I would have done the same for my mom, and I'd do the same for Tom's parents. It just seems like the right thing to do. Some couldn't do it, I know. And that's ok. It's the right thing for them to handle things differently. It is not easy for my family, I know. Don't worry guys, I really do know.