Feeling grateful!

As I type this, I hear my dad snoring away. He's been up once this morning, and I don't anticipate him being up for a few hours. The caregiver is coming for the day, and I have my day's activities planned out. One of them is getting a tour of a nearby assisted living center. I've been to two others, and so far, I can't make up my mind. Maybe it's because I don't want to!

This isn't going to be a forever placement. My husband and I are planning to go to Florida to my dad's place and close it up. Sad to think about that. It's like the end. But I won't think of that for now. It's been on my mind a lot lately. I even had a dream out it. After my dad's placement, I got a call that they lost him. I called my daughter and her boyfriend to come help look for him. Then I went to this place called "Heaven's Gate" (ever see that Shirley Temple movie?") and got my mom and brother to help us look for them. Weird. But it sure was nice to see my mom and brother again!

Anyway, this placement is just on my mind. When do I tell him? How long? ohhh, and the cost is ridiculous. But I'm grateful he has the money. All in all, it's just going to be an expensive thing...the trip, the move, his care. But I'm more concerned about how he is going to handle it. But usually, my concerns never become a problem in reality. I'm hope that's the case this time.

I went to the support meeting last night. I came away feeling grateful. Grateful that I am the way I am and my dad is the way he is and my family has been the way they have been. Others don't have it as easy as I do. The facilitator of the group is great! She always responds in a kind and truthful manner that may/may not be of comfort to others, but is always of comfort to me. Thanks, Renee!