5 months + 1 day

It is hard to believe that it has been 5 months since my dad died. In someways, it seems like it has been forever since I've seen him. But in other ways, it seems like it was just yesterday that he was here. I have found it easier to think of the yesterday scenario. I like thinking that he lived with us. I like remembering meal times together. I like reliving table games, swinging in the backyard, taking a walk with him. For the most part, I have happy thoughts of our times together here. Although the Alzheimer's is there in my head, I am concentrating on the dad that I have always known, and not trying to focus on that journey. But still, I'm grateful for that journey.

I have reclaimed my office and I'm happy to know that I can be there without being sad. It looks completely different than it did when my dad had the room, and I'm sure that helps out. But I also think that part of my acceptance of the whole thing is my knowing that he is so happy now! No more confusion, meds, illness, pain...he just feels great! And he is in a great place too! :)